pimples, peeing....and MONSTROUS ta ta's.

that about sums up my week, LOL!

I have lots of pimples. I normally break out when AF comes....but this is a whole new level. I have them on my face, neck, back. Awesome. sooo very attractive.

I 've been peeing like it's my job - but that's OK. I drink lots of water & fluids anyway so no big deal. My boobs on the other hand - they are outta control. I feel like if they continue to grow and hurt they way they are, I will need my own zip code for them soon. I am def. going to need one of those ginormous ugly bras that could hold a small child inside one of the cups.

Cravings right now are not too strong. Only thing I've been obsessed with is having COLD iced tea. I love the kind that Dunkin Donuts has, but I also have a pitcher of iced tea at home that I made. I need it to be cold, with some ice & a straw.

We are telling my in-law's this weekend. No one on his side knows yet. He has 5 brothers & sisters + spouses & neices/nephews (10 of them!). So yea, I think we might hold off a bit to tell them. But my MIL & FIL are going to be in the know soon enough!

told my parents...

so we told my parents this weekend!!

Sunday we drove out there to stay overnight, as they were having a Memorial Day BBQ on Monday. So we get there on Sunday afternoon and my Mom was putting together dinner. She was taking FOREVER...and I just wanted to TELL HER! My plan was this:

I am a scrapbooker/paper-crafter so I knew I had to involve that somehow! I created a scrapbook page that says "Waiting for Baby"...and pasted 2 photos on it. One is of my H & I holding the digitial pregnancy test, and the other is a closeup of the test, where the word says "Pregant". So I took this page and stuck it into a scrapbook album that has a bunch of other recent pages that I have made.

I took the album out after dinner & said "Mom I really want you to look at the recent scrapbook pages I've made". So she started to flip through. My H was secretly filming with my digital camera. I was able to get my Dad to look too. She was reading EVERY page and looking at all the details...it was KILLING me. I'm like "dear LORD just FLIP THE PAGE!!" haha!

So finally she flipped to the page with the HPT, and it took a good 5-7 seconds for her to look at it, take it in, and realize WHAT she was seeing. She was BLOWN AWAY. She gasped, looked at me and said "ARE YOU PREGNANT????"

I said Yes, through some tears. She started to cry, and immediately started yelling "YAYY!! THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU!!" ha! She was super happy. So was my Dad. They were both taken back by how much of a suprise this was.

The bad news is that I think they were a) miffed that they cannot tell anyone and b) annoyed that I did not share with her that we were actively TTC. I felt bad, but...what can ya do?

I have a video of this. I might post it - not sure though as I'm trying to be all anonymous on here for now...

I also told my brother & a close family friend (they are like sister/brother to me). So only immediate family knows on my side. No one else. We are "coming out" at the 4th of July. We now have to figure out when we will be telling his folks...

telling my parents this weekend...

I'm just over 5 weeks today.

This weekend we are going out to visit my parents. They are having a Memorial Day BBQ. My folks live about 1.5 hours away from here - and since I haven't really talked to my Mom on the phone since my BFP, I've been pretty laid back about when to tell. However I talked to her on the phone today, and I was BURSTING with the urge. There is no way in holy hell I'm going to make it a few more weeks without telling my Mom! I mean, she is MY MOM!!! I just need to be able to tell her. I want to talk to her about it, ask her questions, share in her excitement, etc. My Dad too.

So I've got it all planned out. We are going out there on Sunday and I plan on doing it then. I won't tell you what it is right now - I will share the full story on here when it's all done. We hope to try & catch it on video. All I know is that my Mom is going to CY HER EYES OUT. hahaha!

The only thing I am nervous about is her being able to keep her trap shut around the rest of the family. We are VERY intent on waiting until the first U/S to spread the word. We figured 4th of July will be perfect timing. We will see. I don't mind my parents & brother knowing - but really don't want all my Aunts, etc. knowing just yet. It can get too overwhelming - and let's face it - anything could still happen. We are not out of the woods yet!

Wish me luck!

confirmed with a digital!

Yep, I went out & bought some digitals because who on earth can resist seeing the GLORIOUS word staring you back in the face?

PREGNANT.

I know that I had 2 positive tests on Tuesday, but I have to admit, I still had some anticipation peeing on this digital test. I was SO pumped and happy to see the result!

Here is my first official belly pic. I cut out my head because I am paranoid & anonymous like that.

I am realizing that I am a fatass. And that I need a tan ASAP.

Current Symptoms:

• sore boobs - HUGE boobs. My God, could these things get ANY bigger? I'm sure they will! SCARY!
• fatigue - I'm definitely tired. Which I'm sure will only get worse.
• urination - holy crap, I am a peeing machine these days. I even had to get up during the night to pee. NEVER HAPPENS to me.

that's it for now. no other symptoms that I can think of, other than feeling FAT & BLOATED!

am I really pregnant?

OK day one shock has worn off for the most part.

I can honestly say the only symptoms I have are VERY sore boobs (which I get with AF anyway) - and tiredness. But I'm usually tired during the week anyway! I'm still SUPER early so I know the symptoms will come. I just thank the Lord that I have not started to puke yet!!

Last night I went out for Margaritas & Mexican with the gals from work. There were 3 of us. I had TOTALLY forgot that I made these plans, and yesterday AM I got my BFP. I couldn't back out - so I ran into the restaurant super early, before anyone else got there - and like a crazy PG woman, explained to the hostess that she had to make sure my waiter knew whatever I ordered needed to be VIRGIN. She looked at me like I was a whack job but then she hooked me up! Woohoo! Pulled that one off (I think) - not sure if anyone suspects anything yet. I don't really care if they do - I have a baby to think about dammit! I just really want my family to be the first to know. Co-workers LAST :)

So anyway today I'm just trying to somewhat focus (as I sit here & blog). But I'm actually pretty good. The urge to tell people is not as strong as I thought it would be. I have been emailing with my Mom only - it's easier than phone calls, as I might be tempted. We are supposed to go out to my parents house this weekend to visit. But I'm not ready to share our secret yet. Hmmm...am I going to be able to handle this??

We've figured that we will tell my parents the weekend of June 13th, and then my brother & his wife the following weekend.

Our first Ultrasound has been scheduled for June 25th - so once we have that and know more about timing, EDD, health of the babe, etc - I will feel comfortable telling my extended family. Right now we are thinking 4th of July will be a good time to do that.

So that's all for now. I think tonight I'm going to buy one of those books that you track your pregnancy in! I finally feel like I can let myself LOOK at cute baby stuff and think about the possibility of being a MAMA more now!

*sqqueeee!!!!*

4 weeks, 5 days!?!?!

after all the excitement of the BFP, poor DH really REALLY had to leave for work, as he was late. So he tells me he is leaving, I kiss him goodbye - he leaves.

I start to shower and I'm rinsing my hair and he comes back in, flings open the shower curtain and says "I love you so much. Your boobs look so nice." LOL

I said "yea, well are ya still gonna love me when I'm craving Cookie Dough Ice Cream with Pickles on top, and a huge baby belly??" teee hee.

he said yes of course.

I hope he knows what he is in for.

On another note, I filled out all the info on FF.com. I am officially 4 weeks, 5 days pregnant. EDD is Jan 21, 2010. That's one day after Daddy's Birthday. how sweet!

OMG OMG OMG!!! BFP!!! B-F'ING-P!!!!!!!!!!!

YOU WILL NOT BELIEVE THIS!!!

Last night I told myself that if I had another high temp this morning, I would POAS. Today is 12dpo and I figured it was well within a reasonable range for me to test.

So I had a VIVID dream last night that I took a test & 2 lines appeared. Meh, whatever. Took my temp this morning - 97.70. Not insanely high, but also not very low. I thought I would be all psyched to wake up & test. Nope! Totally relaxed. Went right back to sleep. Woke up a bit later having to pee like a MOFO and decided I would try out a Dollar Tree test.

I go in the bathroom and pee in a cup, take the test & place it on the counter. I brush my teeth & DH walks in before leaving for work to give me a hug. I start hugging him (still half asleep at this point). He tells me he's headed off to work. Ok, love you, bye.

I turn around, look at the pee-stick and see the faintest of faintest of a line:


me: "Ummm. H? Is that a LINE??"
him: "Uhhh where? Gee, I don't know...what does that mean if it is?"
me: "Ummm it means I MIGHT BE PREGNANT!!"

*runs over to the cabinet & rips opens FRER test* (thank GOD I kept the pee in the cup and didn't dump it out!)

I took that test, ran downstairs to grab my camera. DH let me do my thing. As soon as I came back upstairs with my camera, THERE IT WAS!! The most beautiful, gorgeous line I've ever seen in my life. Clear as day: (in person, not as clear in these pics!)

And another more clear pic:

I ran to the top of the stairs, screamed my H's name and began sobbing, yelling "I'M PREGNANT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

We are both just so unbelievably excited right now. I cannot believe this. I had every reason to think this cycle was a total bust. The ONLY thing different is that my boobs are sore in a different spot (underside instead of on the side like usual).

It's only a line on a test, and already I'm so in love. *swoon*

11dpo.

small temp drop this morning.


still doing good holding off on my urge to POAS. Definitely have some sore boobs & a little skin breakout but nothing too major. I've given up trying to tell if these are signs of AF or not.

I suppose if my temp rises tomorrow I will POAS. Otherwise I will fully expect to have AF come on Wed or Thursday.

my pretty chart

well, I think it's puuurty right now. I'm 10DPO and woke up to a lovely high temp this morning (slightly high I guess).


If you're wondering what happened to that GINORMOUS temp spike a few weeks ago, in the middle of my chart (almost 100 degrees!) - I ended up discarding it. It was nothing significant (wasn't around O time) and honestly I think it was just a fluke. It was making my chart really annoying to look at and hard to see the difference between all the temps. So I still have that temp recorded, but it's marked as discarded for now!

It's funny. I'm actually not feeling inclined to POAS right now. I know that my chart looks good, but I also know I'm only 10DPO and it's super early. I also know that with my luck AF will be here in a few days. My boobs are already starting to get sore. There was a small dip a few days past O but I don't think it could have been an implantation dip. *sigh*.

So I will try to resist any urges that might appear within the next few days to POAS. Wish me luck!

6 dpo.

not that there is anything to look at here. pretty boring. just thought I would share.


I am finding myself to be much more patient during this 2ww. I have the temps to go by so I'm not going bonkers guessing about what the F is happening to me.

Talk to me at this time next week...where I am likely to be obsessing over pee sticks and phantom symptoms!!

we have CROSSHAIRS!!

oh yes. yes yes yes. it's about damn time!


not sure if it's the prettiest chart. but I'll take it. (I feel like my temps have a freakishly low level for the most part. vampire perhaps?)

I've officially entered the 2WW. Bring on the craziness.

please, for the sake of my cooter.

please PLEASE ovulate!!

I realize this is my 1st month temping - and I'm supposed to really "figure out" how my body is working. But godammit why does this cycle have to toy with me? Last month my cycle was a lovely 30 days. Right now I'm already on CD22 and still no sign of O. 2 positive OPK's - LOTS of sex. I'm TIRED. (and so are my lady bits!)

I want to go home & go to bed. WITHOUT having sex. sooo tired.

mempphh.

*whistles* dum deeee dummm

dum de dummm

just sittin' around. waiting to O.

that's all.

*tap tap*....excuse me, uterus?

hello? are you there?

can I get some CM? Please?

It's CD 16 dammit. And I'm dry as a bone.

*sigh*

Just when I thought I was figuring my cycles out - I have a feeling this is going to be another 37 day one. Ugh.

So I have not had one sign of any CM. Last month I had EWCM on CD13 & 14. Ohhhh how I <3 me some EWCM. But alas, I wait.

My temps are looking OK I suppose - except for that one minor freak out earlier this week. I think that was due to the hot weather we were experiencing...(which should be GREAT for my charting attempts this summer.)

But yea - so far no sign of O'ing. I'm hoping this weekend it happens. H & I will probably get things going just in case so we don't miss the window. In the meantime I'm peeing on OPK's like it's my J-O-B.

for the love of ANYTHING - I want to get PREGNANT!!