having a hard time today just NOT thinking about this. argh. I was doing SO WELL this cycle...just relaxing and keeping occupied. Not thinking about the "what if's" as much. Now for some damn reason, as the 2ww continues, I cannot help but wonder if I am PG or not.
I woke up this AM to soreness in my boobs. Mostly my left one (which happens to be ridonkulously larger than my right) - so it always get sore first. *sigh*. I know that can be an early PG sign, but it's also a sign that AF is on her way into town.
It's hard to calculate exactly how long we've been "trying". I would say that this Fall we basically said to each other "OK let's see what happens". We stopped doing the P&P and I think really got into trying around November. So now it's March. I know that is NOT that long...but I can't help but get a little sad when I see these people out there who just think about pregnancy and suddenly they are KU. I just want so badly to be able to go visit my parents and tell them they are going to be grandparents!!
My Dad was on the phone with me last night, telling me a story about this little girl he saw in the airport. He was talking to her and teasing her & her baby brother. It was so damn cute. My Dad loves kids. LOVES THEM. I just wanted to be PG at that very moment so that I could tell my Dad that soon he will have his own grandchild to spoil! ugh!
Sorry. I just had to whine. I know this all sounds irrational, silly and entitled. But that's why I am blogging. Because I need an outlet - and I can't do it anywhere else.
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