exhaustion.

it's interesting. It doesn't hit me all the time - but usually right around dinner time, I feel like I could fall asleep over my plate of food. It's almost painful to get up from my chair and leave the dinner table. That's how tired I get. So yea - I've been trying to get lots of sleep at night.

The problem with that is that my bladder is INSANE and I have to pee all the damn time. So I can barely make it through the night without waking up in pain because my bladder is so full. *sigh*

Other than that, knock on wood...no M/S. Could it be possible that I have not been hit with this yet? I am praying to the M/S Gods. Please spare me, I love you!

confirmed with a digital!

Yep, I went out & bought some digitals because who on earth can resist seeing the GLORIOUS word staring you back in the face?

PREGNANT.

I know that I had 2 positive tests on Tuesday, but I have to admit, I still had some anticipation peeing on this digital test. I was SO pumped and happy to see the result!

Here is my first official belly pic. I cut out my head because I am paranoid & anonymous like that.

I am realizing that I am a fatass. And that I need a tan ASAP.

Current Symptoms:

• sore boobs - HUGE boobs. My God, could these things get ANY bigger? I'm sure they will! SCARY!
• fatigue - I'm definitely tired. Which I'm sure will only get worse.
• urination - holy crap, I am a peeing machine these days. I even had to get up during the night to pee. NEVER HAPPENS to me.

that's it for now. no other symptoms that I can think of, other than feeling FAT & BLOATED!

am I really pregnant?

OK day one shock has worn off for the most part.

I can honestly say the only symptoms I have are VERY sore boobs (which I get with AF anyway) - and tiredness. But I'm usually tired during the week anyway! I'm still SUPER early so I know the symptoms will come. I just thank the Lord that I have not started to puke yet!!

Last night I went out for Margaritas & Mexican with the gals from work. There were 3 of us. I had TOTALLY forgot that I made these plans, and yesterday AM I got my BFP. I couldn't back out - so I ran into the restaurant super early, before anyone else got there - and like a crazy PG woman, explained to the hostess that she had to make sure my waiter knew whatever I ordered needed to be VIRGIN. She looked at me like I was a whack job but then she hooked me up! Woohoo! Pulled that one off (I think) - not sure if anyone suspects anything yet. I don't really care if they do - I have a baby to think about dammit! I just really want my family to be the first to know. Co-workers LAST :)

So anyway today I'm just trying to somewhat focus (as I sit here & blog). But I'm actually pretty good. The urge to tell people is not as strong as I thought it would be. I have been emailing with my Mom only - it's easier than phone calls, as I might be tempted. We are supposed to go out to my parents house this weekend to visit. But I'm not ready to share our secret yet. Hmmm...am I going to be able to handle this??

We've figured that we will tell my parents the weekend of June 13th, and then my brother & his wife the following weekend.

Our first Ultrasound has been scheduled for June 25th - so once we have that and know more about timing, EDD, health of the babe, etc - I will feel comfortable telling my extended family. Right now we are thinking 4th of July will be a good time to do that.

So that's all for now. I think tonight I'm going to buy one of those books that you track your pregnancy in! I finally feel like I can let myself LOOK at cute baby stuff and think about the possibility of being a MAMA more now!

*sqqueeee!!!!*