please, for the sake of my cooter.

please PLEASE ovulate!!

I realize this is my 1st month temping - and I'm supposed to really "figure out" how my body is working. But godammit why does this cycle have to toy with me? Last month my cycle was a lovely 30 days. Right now I'm already on CD22 and still no sign of O. 2 positive OPK's - LOTS of sex. I'm TIRED. (and so are my lady bits!)

I want to go home & go to bed. WITHOUT having sex. sooo tired.

mempphh.

*whistles* dum deeee dummm

dum de dummm

just sittin' around. waiting to O.

that's all.

*tap tap*....excuse me, uterus?

hello? are you there?

can I get some CM? Please?

It's CD 16 dammit. And I'm dry as a bone.

*sigh*

Just when I thought I was figuring my cycles out - I have a feeling this is going to be another 37 day one. Ugh.

So I have not had one sign of any CM. Last month I had EWCM on CD13 & 14. Ohhhh how I <3 me some EWCM. But alas, I wait.

My temps are looking OK I suppose - except for that one minor freak out earlier this week. I think that was due to the hot weather we were experiencing...(which should be GREAT for my charting attempts this summer.)

But yea - so far no sign of O'ing. I'm hoping this weekend it happens. H & I will probably get things going just in case so we don't miss the window. In the meantime I'm peeing on OPK's like it's my J-O-B.

for the love of ANYTHING - I want to get PREGNANT!!

aaaaaand we're back down.

haha just like I suspected, back down to normal today. wtf?

My only guess is that it was 95 degrees here yesterday - so perhaps I was hot as hell when I was sleeping but didn't realize it? LOL.

All I know is that I better start getting some CM soon. I'll take Wet CM - any CM please!! Let's get this O'ing show on tha road!!

oh FFS, what is this?

seriously, wtf?

I'm not a charting veteran or expert - but I just feel like I FAIL at this already. How the EFF did I go from 96.5 to effing 99.8?

If I am O'ing I will be pissed because of course we didn't time anything right.

AAAAAAAAAGHHHHHHHH

BBT

last night I went out and bought a BBT. (see previous post for my totally cave-fest on temping, charting, etc.)

it's purple. OOHHH so pretty.

I set that beauty down next to the bed last night, right next to the alarm clock and water. I was all set to wake up and do my very first temp - even though AF is here and it doesn't matter - I wanted to get used to it.

6:30am rolled around...my alarm went off...

I slapped that sucker on snooze faster than anything. Thought about opening an eye so I could grab the purple thermometer - for about 2 nano-seconds, put my head back down on the pillow and passed the eff back out.

screw that! I'll start tomorrow.

*dun dun dun*

ladies and gents...I have now entered the phase of this Blog where I completely contradict myself.

I am pretty sure I'm gonna start temping.

Yep, AF showed last night :(

I was pretty upset yesterday. Uber bummed. This was definitely a cycle where things felt really "different" than the others. I totally thought we had a decent chance. I was just so frustrated. I hate that it takes so long and so much waiting, etc.

So anyway, now that it's Cycle 6, I've talked with H and he and I both agree that we can try out temping for a little while to see how it goes. What I realized is that even though I'm not taking my temp every morning, I'm still charting all my other symptoms...thus become obsessed.

So why not just take that one step further and use my temps to back up my whacky guesses for O date, etc.?

So anyway...that's what I'm doin'. Just wanted to update that no I'm not KU. I will admit, I'm starting to feel like maybe this isn't going to be easy for us. It's so easy for some - I just fear that we will not be those people that have it come easily. Lord, I hope & pray that's not the case.