am I really pregnant?

OK day one shock has worn off for the most part.

I can honestly say the only symptoms I have are VERY sore boobs (which I get with AF anyway) - and tiredness. But I'm usually tired during the week anyway! I'm still SUPER early so I know the symptoms will come. I just thank the Lord that I have not started to puke yet!!

Last night I went out for Margaritas & Mexican with the gals from work. There were 3 of us. I had TOTALLY forgot that I made these plans, and yesterday AM I got my BFP. I couldn't back out - so I ran into the restaurant super early, before anyone else got there - and like a crazy PG woman, explained to the hostess that she had to make sure my waiter knew whatever I ordered needed to be VIRGIN. She looked at me like I was a whack job but then she hooked me up! Woohoo! Pulled that one off (I think) - not sure if anyone suspects anything yet. I don't really care if they do - I have a baby to think about dammit! I just really want my family to be the first to know. Co-workers LAST :)

So anyway today I'm just trying to somewhat focus (as I sit here & blog). But I'm actually pretty good. The urge to tell people is not as strong as I thought it would be. I have been emailing with my Mom only - it's easier than phone calls, as I might be tempted. We are supposed to go out to my parents house this weekend to visit. But I'm not ready to share our secret yet. Hmmm...am I going to be able to handle this??

We've figured that we will tell my parents the weekend of June 13th, and then my brother & his wife the following weekend.

Our first Ultrasound has been scheduled for June 25th - so once we have that and know more about timing, EDD, health of the babe, etc - I will feel comfortable telling my extended family. Right now we are thinking 4th of July will be a good time to do that.

So that's all for now. I think tonight I'm going to buy one of those books that you track your pregnancy in! I finally feel like I can let myself LOOK at cute baby stuff and think about the possibility of being a MAMA more now!

*sqqueeee!!!!*

4 weeks, 5 days!?!?!

after all the excitement of the BFP, poor DH really REALLY had to leave for work, as he was late. So he tells me he is leaving, I kiss him goodbye - he leaves.

I start to shower and I'm rinsing my hair and he comes back in, flings open the shower curtain and says "I love you so much. Your boobs look so nice." LOL

I said "yea, well are ya still gonna love me when I'm craving Cookie Dough Ice Cream with Pickles on top, and a huge baby belly??" teee hee.

he said yes of course.

I hope he knows what he is in for.

On another note, I filled out all the info on FF.com. I am officially 4 weeks, 5 days pregnant. EDD is Jan 21, 2010. That's one day after Daddy's Birthday. how sweet!

OMG OMG OMG!!! BFP!!! B-F'ING-P!!!!!!!!!!!

YOU WILL NOT BELIEVE THIS!!!

Last night I told myself that if I had another high temp this morning, I would POAS. Today is 12dpo and I figured it was well within a reasonable range for me to test.

So I had a VIVID dream last night that I took a test & 2 lines appeared. Meh, whatever. Took my temp this morning - 97.70. Not insanely high, but also not very low. I thought I would be all psyched to wake up & test. Nope! Totally relaxed. Went right back to sleep. Woke up a bit later having to pee like a MOFO and decided I would try out a Dollar Tree test.

I go in the bathroom and pee in a cup, take the test & place it on the counter. I brush my teeth & DH walks in before leaving for work to give me a hug. I start hugging him (still half asleep at this point). He tells me he's headed off to work. Ok, love you, bye.

I turn around, look at the pee-stick and see the faintest of faintest of a line:


me: "Ummm. H? Is that a LINE??"
him: "Uhhh where? Gee, I don't know...what does that mean if it is?"
me: "Ummm it means I MIGHT BE PREGNANT!!"

*runs over to the cabinet & rips opens FRER test* (thank GOD I kept the pee in the cup and didn't dump it out!)

I took that test, ran downstairs to grab my camera. DH let me do my thing. As soon as I came back upstairs with my camera, THERE IT WAS!! The most beautiful, gorgeous line I've ever seen in my life. Clear as day: (in person, not as clear in these pics!)

And another more clear pic:

I ran to the top of the stairs, screamed my H's name and began sobbing, yelling "I'M PREGNANT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

We are both just so unbelievably excited right now. I cannot believe this. I had every reason to think this cycle was a total bust. The ONLY thing different is that my boobs are sore in a different spot (underside instead of on the side like usual).

It's only a line on a test, and already I'm so in love. *swoon*

11dpo.

small temp drop this morning.


still doing good holding off on my urge to POAS. Definitely have some sore boobs & a little skin breakout but nothing too major. I've given up trying to tell if these are signs of AF or not.

I suppose if my temp rises tomorrow I will POAS. Otherwise I will fully expect to have AF come on Wed or Thursday.

my pretty chart

well, I think it's puuurty right now. I'm 10DPO and woke up to a lovely high temp this morning (slightly high I guess).


If you're wondering what happened to that GINORMOUS temp spike a few weeks ago, in the middle of my chart (almost 100 degrees!) - I ended up discarding it. It was nothing significant (wasn't around O time) and honestly I think it was just a fluke. It was making my chart really annoying to look at and hard to see the difference between all the temps. So I still have that temp recorded, but it's marked as discarded for now!

It's funny. I'm actually not feeling inclined to POAS right now. I know that my chart looks good, but I also know I'm only 10DPO and it's super early. I also know that with my luck AF will be here in a few days. My boobs are already starting to get sore. There was a small dip a few days past O but I don't think it could have been an implantation dip. *sigh*.

So I will try to resist any urges that might appear within the next few days to POAS. Wish me luck!

6 dpo.

not that there is anything to look at here. pretty boring. just thought I would share.


I am finding myself to be much more patient during this 2ww. I have the temps to go by so I'm not going bonkers guessing about what the F is happening to me.

Talk to me at this time next week...where I am likely to be obsessing over pee sticks and phantom symptoms!!

we have CROSSHAIRS!!

oh yes. yes yes yes. it's about damn time!


not sure if it's the prettiest chart. but I'll take it. (I feel like my temps have a freakishly low level for the most part. vampire perhaps?)

I've officially entered the 2WW. Bring on the craziness.